Poems Feb 23, 2014

I'm your earthly mother
Not perfect
Meant to fall
Meant to disappoint
Until
You can see clearly


No excuses
It is what it is
It's not about me
And it's all about me
No judgements 
No expectations
Delete the need to understand
And you will
And it is


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